[Tough] Love beats Hate: Are you still wiggling?

Whew. Now that the situation that moved me to want to participate in the blogger event Love Beats Hate seems to have calmed to a simmer, I feel better about sharing.

Love Beats Hate is a movement organized by Diana Lee of Somebody Heal Me and Jeanne of Chronic Healing.

How to list all the reasons a person might have for interacting with the world in any given manner!

My reputation seems to precede me occasionally. Other times I get pecked by the least little rooster chicks. A little rooster came after me the other day and it took every bit of love in my heart not to squash him like a bug. By the end he had pretty much exposed all of himself that there was to see, and the show was over.  He'll learn eventually.

If you were there, you saw this. If you weren't, it's gone now. It was a classic example of discernment.

Parin Stormlaughter  I have become doctor phobic. Just the thought of a doctor visit sends me spiraling.


[rooster]  OH boy, here we go again with the mighty storm laugher! REALLY? Your life is spiraling out of control not just your head! Mary Jane is gonna get her fired and doctors are evil. I would ask what you do endorse but your political views are waaay too obvious. [Original Poster] is my homie and I dont want your toxic ooze in my community. I wish there was a captain storm slaughter abortive pill we could all take, or you would hop in your fairy costume and fly the fuck outta here.


Parin Stormlaughter  LOL go smoke a bowl, [rooster].

When I saw this, I hadn't the foggiest notion what this fellow was talking about. I'm retired on disability pension so there is nothing for me to get "fired" from. [Original Poster] and I have participated in a couple of chronic illness online support communities for a number of years. She knows me. No idea what community he thinks I'll be oozing toxicity into.

It seems he has associated me with a political view on cannabis. Where on earth he got that is beyond me as well. Anyone who reads my blog is quite aware that I consider plants to be premier medicines, foods, companions in their own way - but, until Federal law changes, cannabis is illegal to grow and/or possess in all 50 states. And you can bet that if I wanted to utilize cannabis, I'd grow it myself. There is not a professional cannabis farm that grows organic cannabis on a large scale.  They're likely to use just as many chemical pesticides, weed killers, chemical fertilizers and whatnot as any other non-organic farmer.  Who knows?  There may be a "Round-up ready" cannabis seed out there.  Not for me.  I use organic for virtually every plant that goes into my body.  If cannabis ever becomes legal and I decide to try it, I'll grow my own thank you very much.

The discussion is moot.  I'm not spending any time thinking about cannabis.  There are plenty more plants for me to explore that I can legally grow myself, or that will grow wild without a bit of work from me.

[participant]  Well that's original!


Parin Stormlaughter  [rooster's] just mad because I keep denying his friend requests.


[rooster]  Anybody want a good laugh...maybe even a storm of laughs? I dont have anything to say beyond youre a lune and here is proof http://sparklingwithcrystals.blogspot.com/


Parin Stormlaughter  Thank you! More traffic, the better. But you're hijacking [Original Poster's] post, eh? Come & comment on my blog! Please!

Yep.  While he was blasting me on this thread, he was sending me multiple requests asking to follow me.

Why would anyone do that?

[rooster]  Thanks but no thanks...I aint messin with the power crystals you use over there...you witch doctor types are dangerous in your intention alone! FREAK!


Parin Stormlaughter  Full disclosure: I'm Tweeting all this too. Fear God, [rooster]. I'm nothing to be afraid of. :)

By this point, I was giggling.

[rooster]  I am an atheist, I dont fear god or any of your stupid superstitions retard! what differnce would it make if you were tweeting it? Are your fellow losers gonna come at me in minnions? just go back to WoW were you are still cool.


Parin Stormlaughter  I've never played World of Warcraft in my life. Somebody got into my checking account and drained it for a WoW site.

I had made a Ping post previously about Word of Warcraft that appeared on all my sites.

Parin Stormlaughter  No joke, [rooster]. Leave poor [Original Poster's] post alone & fight me on my blog.


Parin Stormlaughter  But, I'm touched that you care. :-*


[rooster]  well for that I am sorry...nope I am not really! HAHA, you spread your moronic filth that rots the minds of your race. False hope in prayers and other BS just makes people believe that everything will be ok, melts polar ice caps, kills millions in wars, leads to disease spreading...youre a wretch and I hope you die!


Parin Stormlaughter  *sigh* And what moronic filth is that, [rooster]? You certainly credit me with an awful lot of power.


Parin Stormlaughter  Oh - what race am I btw?


Parin Stormlaughter  I really am sorry, [Original Poster], but baiting [rooster] is just too much fun.


[rooster]  its all there dumb dumb read it again

By this time, tears of laughter and sarcasm had overcome me.

Parin Stormlaughter  But [rooster]! I want to see you say it again! And again! And again! Something about your special choice of words...can't quite pin it down...


[rooster] and btw, i only friend requested you so that i could tell you without inconveniencing [Original Poster]. If you had half a brain you would have figured that out. if you actually cared about [Original Poster] you wouldnt tell her your affraid of docs this month when you said you trust them last month! empty words!


Parin Stormlaughter  Busted! My "comment" field is open to everybody and always has been.


You just wanted to see my gorgeous face...


Parin Stormlaughter  And my blog is your favorite, so why not comment there?


I think that secretly, you wish you were me, with all my powers to melt polar ice caps and spread disease, ALL BY MYSELF.


[rooster], jealousy isn't necessary! I'll teach you everything I know for FREE!

It goes on. He makes sexual references, calls me a subspecies, and tells me he sincerely hopes I die in pain again. Oh, and he says I have a "sour attitude".

I was collapsing with laughter.  Nothing would have induced me to beat this man with anything but love!

He really had not done his homework.  I'm really not much fun to fight with, truth be told. I never fight unless I feel certain I'll win, and I take no joy in besting others. This poor entrepreneur wasn't worth going to war over. He wasn't after the original poster and I can take care of myself. 

It is so glaringly obvious that he does not have a clue who I am or what I believe, nor does he have the slightest concern about anyone who is chronically ill. He hasn't read my blog nearly as closely as he would have anyone believe. Well, I hope that's the case. Maybe he read it and simply didn't understand. That's always possible.

Somebody flagged his comments. It's an important thing to do and next time he comes at me like this, I'll flag them myself. Hard to feel regretful for egging him on, though. I can take care of myself but another chronically ill person retired on disability pension reading his attack on me might have been dreadfully hurt by what he said. It was important to them to see that love beats hate, even if it's tough sarcastic love.

I wish him well.  I'll continue to pray for him.

"May God bless him, may He give him all kinds of good things and if possible, may He love him more and more." St. Therese of Lisieux




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Love Beats Hate Blog Event

Too many of us who are chronically ill and disabled have to give up our precious spoons to fight off attacks from sometimes aggressive and assuredly misguided people.

I plan to participate in this blog event with an article about a dreadful episode that happened to me recently. Blogger Extraordinaire Diana Lee of Somebody Heal Me is helping to organize the Love Beats Hate Blog Event.  Check out Diana's article and the list of participating blogs.

Next Wednesday November 17, 2010, consider contributing a article. Love Beats Hate better than anything. :)


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The Moral of the Story

Why I don't cook, use knives or other sharp objects, operate motorized vehicles or heavy equipment, or do much other than type and get sarcastic with assholes. This is a copy-and-paste from my personal notes.  

Valerian and Lavender Vodka Stress Tincture

1 oz finely chopped dried valerian root
1/2 oz lavender buds
10-12 ozs plain vodka

Combine all ingredients in a 16 oz vinegar bottle and cap tightly. Label and date. Shake gently but thoroughly. Set aside on the counter for 8 weeks or so. Strain into an 8 oz bottle, cap tightly, and transfer label.

Dose is 1/4 tsp every 30 minutes until symptoms diminish. Dilute in 1/4 cup water or chamomile tea if desired.


11/13/10
This will teach me not to make medicine when I’m migrainey. This should have been made with feverfew instead of valerian. I misjudged the size of bottle I would need, choosing one that was too small. I was only able to get in 1/2 oz of lavender instead of a full ounce like Rosemary Gladstar’s recipe called for. I spilled vodka trying to transfer the whole mess into a larger bottle. I had enough vodka to fill it to about the 10 or 12 oz level.

None of this is fatal. The combination should work quite nicely. It just wasn’t what I had planned to do. And when I was through, I felt like crying.

So, what I’ve made is a nervine for stress, anxiety, and sleep instead of a migraine preventative preparation. And now I’m out of vodka so I can’t make the correct one.

Moral of the story: Don’t make medicine when you should be taking medicine.


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Love of money is the root of all evil. Addiction to World of Warcraft is a trigger for my prayer intervention.

Please pray...

I'm spheksophobic - wasp phobia. Please pray for this poor lady. http://ping.fm/7rz9g

In people-overload state. Taking a break to discharge all this energy. I love you all.

Ground it out, you energy vacuum! Part I

10/14/10 Edit: gah, mentioned a link then forgot to put it in. It's there now. :P
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Take it or Leave it Category: Take what's useful...you know the tune. :)

One of the things we chronically ill folks will say in a heartbeat is that we will do nearly anything to treat our situations and get well. Of course, a generalization that broad would need clarification and individualization after all (no Santaria or Palo Mayombe, Briyumba or Kimbisa or anything in that category for me, for example). But if we can find something relatively safe with a reasonably good chance of working, we'll take a look at it.

Once I was able to concentrate solely on getting well, I jumped into healing with both feet.  I couldn't work full time at a paying job so I determined that I would work full-time every day at getting well.  I asked every doctor I had for all the recommendations that he or she could think of.  I work closely with all my doctors and wouldn't dream of doing anything that they would disapprove.

I pondered and prayed, and several ideas presented themselves.  I consulted an exquisite crystal healer and it changed the course of my healing.  It became apparent that I had problems with my energy bodies.  While prescription medicines and a couple of supplements did their things, I began work on my energy bodies.

I define my energy body as my internal nerve structures, spine, any and all nervous systems; and my external energy body such as aura, chakra system, and the weird energy fields I have no expectations that I'll ever fully understand in this life.

Donna Eden has developed a system by which people can use their hands to manipulate their own body energies (or the energy fields of others).  I approve of her system.  First, her system gets my thumbs-up because it teaches people to use their own energy and does not utilize the energy of anything or anyone else.  It does not resemble such systems as Reiki which call on "universal energy" which, in fact, does not exist.  But that part is for another column.  Second, her system WORKS.  Third, her system is easy to understand and remember.

So after working with her system and home rock medicine (wouldn't ever consider what I do as real crystal healing), I felt better but not sufficiently better.  I began homebrewing mead and medicinal beers, foraging my semi-wild backyard for healing herbs, and then I fell and broke my neck.

Yep, I broke a bone spur off my C-5 vertebra.  Come to learn that I've got spine problems from my C-1 all the way to my tailbone.  So, I added get spinal work done to my list.

I wasn't getting good results from chiropractics.  Every adjustment seemed to trigger every symptom I had so I gave it up.

Honestly, at that point I was stumped.  I made an appointment with Pam Oslie, a psychic in California.  She had very specific--Edgar Cayce-type specific--recommendations for work on my spine that I needed.  She cautioned me that I might need rods on either side of my spine if I couldn't get the problems fixed (yeah, I've got scoliosis too).  Anybody coming at my back with a knife will get what I'd give anybody attempting to stab me in the back.  So, just don't go there, docs.

Anyway, now I'm getting superb physical therapy treatments on my neck and back according to her recommendations--very good results!!  The treatments have tremendously improved the flow of nerve impulses throughout my entire self.  If the physical therapist I were seeing had less education and experience, I don't believe he would have been able to locate the problems solely by touch.  They don't show up on x-rays or MRI but do show up--ok, get this--Pam Oslie saw them and the PT can feel them.  The doctoral student who conducted the evaluation caught every single nuance in my (lack of) balance and the PT will help with it as well.

One thing that continues to trouble me is utterly perplexing sensitivity.  I'm not sensitive - I am the sensor itself.  I'm not a careful observer - I'm the Princess from The Princess and the Pea.  That was one of my late father's nicknames for me.  He'd say, "All right, Princess and the Pea..."

I can't innumerate everything I've done to combat this, fix it, reduce it, overcome it, bury it, obliterate it, embrace it, integrate it, dilute it, give it away--you cannot imagine what I've done to address this.  I have had absolutely no success at all, none, zero, zilch.  I am becoming more and more sensitive every day.

I've carefully read and learned about my astrological natal chart as part of my healing work - hell, I've about gotten all that's out there of pharmaceuticals and Western medicine so I plunged into complementary and more esoteric, metaphysical work.

In my astrological chart, I found the reflection of my sensitivity which was comforting in a way.  It said to me that for the most part, I had not caused it; however, it is utterly part of who I am and cannot be separated from my self-ness.  According to chart progressions, I can expect it to get worse, or to say it another way, I will become more intuitive, sensitive, aware of energy, psychic, and so on as I finish up the second half of my life.  My energetic vacuum will self-upgrade to industrial strength in about 10 years.  It's bad now.  I cannot picture what it will be like in 10 years.

Before I spoke with Pam Oslie, I had read her book Life Colors: What the Colors in Your Aura Reveal and taken her online "aura color" test.  I had done my little thing and determined that she would be a good fit for what I needed to know.

She told me that, in her system, I was a "life color" that she doesn't see often:  Crystal.  Well, "Crystal" was tied for second place on the online test I took but once she described "Crystals", I was convinced that she was right.

Crystals, one might say, are no one until we're with someone.  We don't have much energetic personality so to speak until we come in contact with another person.  When we do, we suck energy from the other person and fill our aura out with the "color" of the other person.

When I'm with a "yellow", I'm yellow.  When I'm with a "blue", I'm blue.  On page 155 in her book, Pam Oslie says

Crystal is a rare Life Color.  Crystals have clear auras and are known as the "aura chameleons".  Like chameleons, their auras will change colors to match those of the people they are connecting with at the time.  They then take on the characteristics, emotions, and thoughts of that color.  Consequently, in power Crystals can get along quite well with almost anyone.  Yellows, for example, feel they can relate to Crystals who, when they are with them, act and think like Yellow.  Later when the same Crystals spend time with Sensitive Tans, the Tans feel as if they have found kindred spirits.  However, Crystals' inconsistencies can also confuse people.  One minute Crystals think and behave like Greens.  Later they can act like Blue.  The more they bond with others, the more their personalities change.  Because Crystals tend to absorb the colors of other people's auras, people can, at times, feel an energy drain when they are in the presence of Crystals.

Yep, she's got that right.  I'm a pure energy sucker and until I started working on healing my energy body, I wasn't even aware of the extent to which I was vampiring others.  If I get low on energy, I'll start looking for energy wherever I can find it.  Here I discuss the results of a test the chiropractor ran on the energy levels of my two daughters and myself, same day, same technician.  It seems I run half a tank low on a regular basis.

She doesn't have as much about Crystals in her book as she does other Life Colors.  Her best recommendation for my Crystal problems is to immerse myself outside in Nature which, to me, is only the most wonderful thing next to sex... :D

Next, more on my Crystalline self and the various Nature things I'm doing to solve my issues.  I've gotten a piece of more specific, concrete advice to chew on so to speak.

So, I'm consulting psychics and learning to read astrological charts, working with rocks and herbs and foraging wild plants from my backyard along with taking prescription medicine and going through physical therapy.

Still think there's anything I won't do to get well?  Within reason, of course?  :)




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Chemtrails: Calling all conspiracy theorists!

One day about 10 or 12 years ago, the forecast here was for sparkling sunshine and clear blue skies. At lunchtime, jets flew over leaving expanding trails that left the sky overcast for the rest of the day.

The television meteorologists didn't know how to explain it to the viewers. They simply reported that the sky was clear as had been forecast, then it wasn't and they had no data to show what had happened. They did this one time. In spite of how many times it has happened since then, no one has said a word.

When some jets leave trails and some don't, when those trails expand massively, and when that phenomenon cannot be explained, something is wrong.

"A" shaped contrail??
I took this picture in April 2006

Governments around the world do things all the time. Private citizens do too and the government cannot or will not engage them. Chemically sensitive people like me get sicker and sicker when more and more chemicals are introduced into the air, water, and soil.

The video is extremely well done, haunting music with quite an expert at the sound board. Troubles me that the music runs throughout the whole thing like a B-movie. It's done to manipulate emotion and retain viewer attention. This issue shouldn't need those movie tricks.

It's beyond me why no one is able to figure out who is spraying. Many of the jets that do this are painted pure white with no identifying numbers or symbols. What airport allows egress and ingress to that kind of jet?

I've been following this issue for a long time, a very long time.   Virtually no progress has been made except that for about ten years, most of the spraying around here now occurs during the colder months.  At first, the spraying was conducted year 'round.

About 4 years ago, several of us took a break at work and watched a sky-writer plane advertise a processed meat manufacturing company.  I took a couple of pictures.  I wondered at the time what was in the spray.  Maybe it's the same substance that the jets spray. I took the pictures in September 2006. My last day before suddenly becoming disabled was two months later, November 2006.

I certainly don't know what's going on in the sky. I do know what's going on with my sensitive self. My sensitivity is getting worse.

Woke up singing "Dance with Me" by Orleans. :D

Ill-wishing

This one is rather "out there" so, as always, take what's useful and discard the rest. :)

I sustained a blow to my energy body first thing Saturday morning. I'm still recovering. Thank you to my incomparable friends for their love and help.  I'm working hard to get well enough fast enough that I won't miss physical therapy in a little while.  It has been wonderful so far and I cannot miss an appointment now!

There is a thing called ill-wishing that Christianity for sure advises against and no doubt other belief systems of good-will find wrong as well. Ill-wishing can cause bad effects in the one wished ill upon, it isn't character-building for the ill-wisher, and simply isn't constructive to resolving the problem. There are several proven and time-honored methods for deflecting ill-wishing and even turning it back upon the ill-wisher. 

I only recommend what my belief system advises.  Matthew 5:43-45 "You have heard that it was said, 'You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.'  But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father in Heaven; for He makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust."

What's sad about ill-wishing, or rather what is particularly sad about this specific event, is that I was completely uninvolved in any way in the problem that the wisher was faced with.  I was a victim of false accusation generated in her own mind.  The wisher did try prayer afterwards to "make me not hate" her but I've never hated her to begin with!  My heavens, I don't hate anybody!

This is a classic example of false accusation, bad conscience, and how it can cause true assault on someone else's energy body.  I felt the surge of hatred and anger just as truly as though she had been in front of me swinging her fist.  Her ill-wishing physically injured me just as though she had.

Some people have inborn talent to maneuver and manipulate their own energy.  They can do things like slam people they don't like and make all their friends line up and "do right".   If they're really in denial, they say things like, "people who cross me always have something bad happen to them!"  I shake my head when I hear that.  You're more likely to be causing the other person trouble yourself by nothing more sinister than your own ill-wishing.  Nothing to write home about there.

Some people are more susceptible to ill-wishing than others.  I am extremely sensitive to it, so sensitive it would defy comprehension; however, I've got references.  I have had to find ways of contending with it throughout my entire life, and it remains a problem now.

One person who has seen how ill-wishing whacks me said, "Well, quit pissing people off!"  That wouldn't have helped in this situation because I had nothing to do with it in the first place.  I don't often have much to do with things that cause people to ill-wish upon me.  I get more general crap from Christian-haters, people who hate my former employer, people who hate my friends, and that sort of thing. 

I got whacked because of someone else's bad conscience, Scorpionic desire for revenge, and Leonine conviction that she is leading the way in saving the world by going after people like me.  Then she discovered that I wasn't doing anything.

Give me a freakin' break.  And keep your ill-wishing to yourself.  We're on the same side here and please keep that in mind.

When all this came to light I thought to myself, wow, some people credit me with a lot more power than I have, and some underestimate me entirely.

For the record, I'm in the middle.





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Oh...me.

Next time I go upstairs, I'll get my EMF meter and take some readings.

Seriously! I have an EMF meter! A good one! XD

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Feeling so good about feeling so bad :)

Physical therapy resembles manure. Yeah it stinks but once it's worked in well, it's the best thing your garden soil can get.

I feel like I've been pooped-upon, in the sense of the above statement. XD

I'm so sore.  I can feel muscles that I imagine haven't been moved in a couple of decades.  Again I got manual traction.  He also did something he called "upper cervical spine release" where he actually isolated the first three cervical vertebrae and shifted and manipulated around each one separately.

It felt so good that I'm afraid I may have sounded...orgasmic.  XD

What he did last TENSday set off many of my symptoms.  Stupid stress over the worst sorts of human behavior exacerbated the situation and I had a terrible weekend.  I was upfront with him about how bad I felt.  He apparently understood what I meant. 

When we finished, I felt as much better as I had felt bad when I arrived.  I've got some exercises to do and a couple of additional ideas for improving recovery between sessions.

In looking over his educational achievements briefly listed on his business card, he appears to my uneducated eye to be about 2 years from an osteopathic doctor degree.  In another state of this Union, he would probably qualify for licensing that Alabama simply doesn't have.  He speaks with authority and his manipulations of my spine have been precise and effective.  The guy's in the right business.  He knows what he's doing.

In one pocket I had put a tumbled blue calcite and in the other pocket, a double-terminated/ET lithium quartz.  Vibrationally, calcite helps "break up" old systems that are no longer working (useful constipation treatment is clear calcite in water, or as a formal gemstone remedy).  Lithium quartz I believe will help me with my recently-developed doctor phobia.  Today, the Moon is in Taurus which rules the neck.  Things came together to make today a very, very good neck day.

Ice tonight and tomorrow, my bff Scalene the TENS unit.  Onward and upward! 


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